I remember when I first learned about the Myers Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI); it was in a corporate setting. We were all tasked as a work team to individually complete what seemed like an endless list of questions (there's a loooooong and short version). The very first time I completed it, of the 16 personality type possibilities, my type was ENFJ. This was fascinating, as I had previously thought extroversion and introversion (which is represented by the first letter in this four-letter combo) was about being outgoing or shy. I learned that the E and the I represented your preference for getting or focusing your energy.
I've fallen into this pattern where I get bummed when my energy is low and I'm just not feeling motivated to dive in and get busy. You would think I'd be used to this, knowing that these periods are the ebbs that are BFFs with the flows. I feel like I'm stuck. It's time for one of my mirror chats where the questioning and gentle flogging begins, "What's wrong with you? Why can't you get revved up and back into your flow of creativity? Why can't you just get up and get busy?"
This past Saturday, I had the joy of attending the Atlanta GLOW's Young Women Leadership Conference in Marietta. My joy was slightly interrupted, though, as I listened to a couple of the loving and dedicated mothers of these young women express their overwhelm and stress around doing everything in their power to ensure that their daughters figure out the rules of the high school to college to work game. Unfortunately, the majority of these rules are hidden, created and most easily accessible to the favored and advantaged in our society.
Physical fatigue, irritability, heaviness of spirit, mental fogginess, and emotional unavailability are all on the menu when the burn is simmering. It’s something I’ve intentionally worked on learning to keep at bay or eliminate altogether for over 15 years. Prior to my commitment to be more self aware, I just didn’t get how debilitating burnout can be. It was only in its absence that I became fully aware of its presence.
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