. . . I'm the consummate experimenter!
I prefer being called a business builder over entrepreneur or business owner because, for me, it reflects my philosophy around what I'm up to. I'm always interested in discovering more challenging, exciting and effective ways to build for and serve others. I love sharing information, but the real juice is in serving as a catalyst for transformation.
I'm definitely over shifting directions in wild fashion (which is what I did a lot of when I first started), but I'll never be over trying new things to contribute my best in the world. I like to think of my work as a set of Lego building blocks (remember Legos from when we were kiddie pops; now there are Lego Stores and a Lego Movie, love its theme song "Everything is awesommmme . . ."). It's like having this cool building set filled with a variety of sizes, colors and shapes, which I can construct and take apart as often as I'm inspired to, and I can even purchase unique pieces at the Lego store to add to my existing set.
This approach has meant missing the target over and over again, which can suck big time when I get attached to the outcome, but I eventually learned to build and detach. This way I don't get sucked into the quicksand of sadness over failure.
Do I get disappointed? Absolutely! That's always going to come when something doesn't go the way I planned or expected, but I do my best to stay detached from the outcome. I'm not into suffering anymore, it doesn't wear well. I'm over it!
I've learned that there are a zillion reasons why something doesn't work out - some of them are rooted in external factors totally out of my control and others are contingent on me - my readiness, energy (my vibrational frequency), etc. It's a complex soup of unknowns that can result in a miss. Sometimes I can identify where the gaps are and other times it's a mystery. After years of experiencing missed targets, I've concluded that if it's not a "yes" it's either a "not right now" or "there's something better." This reasoning feels good, so I've nestled into it.
I fell into that perfectionist trap the first few decades of my life to my detriment. I wasn't really aware of if for most of that time, but it was such a heavy way to live, a HUGE contrast to living intentionally. There was so much pressure to perform the Right Way.
What's the Right Way? There is no "Right Way." There may be a right way for me, at a given time, based on what I'm working with, especially when I take into consideration my desires, natural rhythm, interests, intentions, etc., but there is no one and only way. Being curious, exploring, constructing and experimenting can actually be quite fun.
I've learned SO much as a result of missing my targets. My quiver is now filled with more carefully crafted arrows and I'm more astute when I aim and fire. Yes, I still miss many of my targets, but I hit more these days than I did in the past.
If I stopped playing the games of business building and life - shooting for the target and missing - I'd never experience success, the sheer joy of the hit. I'd never get to bask in the delight of serving as a transformational catalyst, and I'd never feel the yummy satisfaction of living from a place of wisdom.
Regardless of our structure of choice in the wacky world of work, whether we provide a service or a product, it's not easy. Humans can be fickle, unclear about desires, stuck in victim mode, lazy, selfish, scared, and a host of other unpleasant descriptions while at the same time desperately seeking solutions and relief from discomfort, pain or suffering. Hard to please and often harder to help.
Business building is a challenging game. I've heard it said time and time again, and I concur; playing in this arena is the best personal development program EVER. I get to fail, get knocked over, experience disappointment, fall, cry, get stuck and sludge through the funk, but you know what, I also get to succeed, stand up, experience joy, rise, experience flow, smile, laugh, play, expand, grow and I thrive. Sounds a lot like life, eh?
So I guess I'm going to keep failing, but that just means I'll succeed more . . . Yaaas!
Business building is just like life, filled with ups and downs, peaks and valleys, ebbs and flows, and failures and successes. I wouldn't trade either one for all the tea in China, I mean, all the money in the world!
Aspiring Sage, Creative Maven, Fancier of Books, Guardian of Student Experiences, Inner Explorer, Lover of Living & Learning, Partisan of Play, Princess of Joy, Purveyor of Possibility, Vibrational Recalibrator.