I've fallen into this pattern where I get bummed when my energy is low and I'm just not feeling motivated to dive in and get busy. You would think I'd be used to this, knowing that these periods are the ebbs that are BFFs with the flows. I feel like I'm stuck. It's time for one of my mirror chats where the questioning and gentle flogging begins, "What's wrong with you? Why can't you get revved up and back into your flow of creativity? Why can't you just get up and get busy?"
I've made lots of progress in this area over the years, as it used to involve some pretty intense flogging, but I've learned the art of being more gentle with myself, which leaves me curious versus beaten down and deflated.
I've been feeling like this for the past couple of weeks and I'm at the "enough" point.
I'm getting antzy.
Creative ideas are rising and the tingle of excitement about my next project is slowly moving through me, but I still feel like my mojo is relaxing in a hammock somewhere.
Earlier this year, I discovered these amazing guided meditations by davidji on the Insight Timer App via my Android.
I was looking for some new and fresh guided meditations to help me focus, get back on track and I found his "Getting Unstuck" meditation.
I laid on the floor with my headset on, I "feathered my nest" to get comfy, as he encourages (love this, btw), and it was 25 minutes of pure magic.
I love everything about it - the pitch, pace, power and tone of his voice; how he carefully shares knowledge and a little of the backstory and defines terms - as he gently guides you through the process. It feels like a trusted, dear friend taking my hand and guiding me to safety.
In this short guided meditation, his summary spoke to me as if we were having this very personal conversation about my challenge of feeling stuck, not being able to jump start my creativity and get my mojo back.
At one point in the summary before leading you into the quiet period of this meditation (which I love, because in some guided meditations the guide talks through the entire session; yuck, I'm hungry for him/her to summarize things and get me started, then hush so I can get to MY stillness and silence, and just be with myself ), he says that this period of no activity is a "nourishing process...a pattern interrupt in your path...an opportunity to take a deep breath before diving into your next wave of activity...the rest up before the launch...time to establish yourself in the present moment and get energized before setting yourself up for the next trajectory..."
Don't you just love these descriptors? Yummy.
I'm convinced that I've been utterly conditioned by our highly driven culture to believe that these breaks are bothersome and unnecessary; that they slow me down and block me from my creativity and flow. But, truth be told, they're just the opposite.
They represent the time necessary to reboot, refresh and re-situate myself so I can rejuvenate, sharpen and get my mental clarity on point so I can jump back in the driver's seat ready for the next leg of my journey, 100% engaged and pulling from the best of me and what I have to contribute.
I think this is my last go round of allowing myself to get bummed and locked in a struggle, even a little one, with myself when I'm in the funk of feeling stuck.
I know what's happening, but I've allowed my inner critic, Beatrice, to take over and whisper de-energizing, unsweet nothings in my ear.
This simple, yet juicy guided meditation by davidji has provided a much appreciated tool to nudge me back to the reality of what these periods mean and how required and even desired they are to fully step back into me so I can blossom in ways that make my heart happy.
A special thanks to davidji and his work in this area. I've been doing a little digging to find even more of his work.
I'm so grateful that he's allowed himself these periods of rest before launching into his projects so he could provide these beautifully designed guided meditations, books and more for us to feast on.
It's so cool how what you need, when you need it, AND when you're ready for it, appears when you're ready to ascend to the next level.
I'm slowly coming out of this funk of feeling stuck.
I'm just flowing with it; no push, no pull at this point, just flow.
This feels so much better. Ahhhh....
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